its a really backwards ****ed up story where she tried never to lose me and she ended up losing me for good....I could try, I could get her back... but i am turning bitter and also telling my self she does not deserve me especially not now... I really do want her back but I am fighting with my self all the way.. .I had to stop all contact and delete her numbers and emails etc because I just could not take knowing I could give in at any moment ..... my fav quote ever (which just recently got inked on my arm) "when a man learns to love, he bears the risk of hatred"
A true quote, did she cheat? (Rhetorical question)
If not, and it was a forgiveable offence and you want her back as much as you say, why not give it another go, she sounds important to you
The only reason I would get rid 100% would be for cheating, most other things can be sorted out, especially if you love them that much