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So... fellow neowinians,

I find myself right now fixing a really old computer (Toshiba Satellite with a P4), then listening to a random game album ([DPCX-5229] Roommate Novel) and I cannot help but to think that something is really missing from me.

I can't evade to remember the days when the ICQ was all the rage (I still keep my number), those days where I meet a very influential person for me, such was our friendship that I even created a whole novel just because she somehow inspired it... only to apart myself from her at the beginning of this year because I couldn't handle it anymore (http://www.neowin.ne...after-14-years/), then I also remember the days of me and my cousin playing really good old school games, all the way from nintendo to playstation 2, only to be ignored completely after I arrived from Germany due completing a masters program, apparently because now he has a girlfriend with whom he can do exactly the same (plus more I guess), then I remember my university days... where at least there was people with whom I could talk and not feel myself in complete loneliness (played games with them also like smash brothers)... etc.

I can help to think that I want a girl with whom I can share or experience similar times, only to be remembered by my own mind that each time that I had tried a relationship like that ends up really bad and that I'm very delusional if I continue to think that there is somebody like that, because what my Imagination is drawing are just ideals, which are... nowhere near realit?t (yes I've had girlfriends before).

Lastly it comes to mind that soon enough I will cross a continent, while not the first time... I just can feel perfectly comfortable, then again the same thinking again and again... then I remember, that I should continue repairing this laptop.

Fellow neowinians, how do you cope with such human feelings? I know this only last a bit, but sometimes they get very deep...

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We all have those feelings, at one point or another. You just need to wait for the universe to work its crazy magic to meet the right person.

It's quality over quantity.

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You experience feelings like this IMO because your an intelligent and deep person. I do not see how you cannot always be questioning things like this, unless you are one of those people that just get on with life, without a care, doing mundane things without passion etc. etc. I know what kinda person I would rather be.

Unless you are experiencing thoughts like this 24/7 (depression) I think it's pretty normal. I was like you, now I have a gf that I love, and my life is "perfect". But I still wonder, and there's always the attraction/romanticism of running away and being a loner again (not that I ever would). There's a lyric by a band the cribs that goes something like "spent all this time chasing happy, but happy is boring to me" I always liked that lyric...

Once or twice a year i'll drop a bunch of acid which always opens me and lets me think about things in a different way and I always feel pretty good afterwards but I wouldn't recommend this and I doubt most of the Neowin community would be feeling this idea lol.

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We all have those feelings, at one point or another. You just need to wait for the universe to work its crazy magic to meet the right person.

It's quality over quantity.

Crazy huh? The universe must be bipolar with me then...

I'm very lonely and have no offline friends.

As you can see... I ran out of them too :(

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get over it and do something productive. People are just means to an end, use them for what you need them for and move on to achieve your goals. This is how you become the most productive and actually most successful. BTW, I already know I'm a douche, I just tell it how it is though.

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You experience feelings like this IMO because your an intelligent and deep person. I do not see how you cannot always be questioning things like this, unless you are one of those people that just get on with life, without a care, doing mundane things without passion etc. etc. I know what kinda person I would rather be.

Unless you are experiencing thoughts like this 24/7 (depression) I think it's pretty normal. I was like you, now I have a gf that I love, and my life is "perfect". But I still wonder, and there's always the attraction/romanticism of running away and being a loner again (not that I ever would). There's a lyric by a band the cribs that goes something like "spent all this time chasing happy, but happy is boring to me" I always liked that lyric...

Once or twice a year i'll drop a bunch of acid which always opens me and lets me think about things in a different way and I always feel pretty good afterwards but I wouldn't recommend this and I doubt most of the Neowin community would be feeling this idea lol.

I'll try to look for that song, thanks, your post somehow made me feel "intelligent" but nonetheless... I know I still well within the average person capabilities, I just tend to be very persistent, I also wonder how long that skill of me will last.

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Crazy huh? The universe must be bipolar with me then...

As you can see... I ran out of them too :(

well the only ones I used to have become so distant and I talk to em on facebook and they have no clue about anything I'm into at all... they don't even know what trance music is, they don't know any anime or memes, they barely know anything about computers, they have kids and I don't, they are dog people and i'm a cat person, they are into cars and I'm not, they watch stupid tv shows i have no care to interest in, etc... etc... etc.... hell one of them stopped talking to me after I posted a buncha trance songs from youtube on my profile... sucks.... how they can throw away lots on that.... oh well it shows thier true colors...... **** brown and baby puke green.

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well the only ones I used to have become so distant and I talk to em on facebook and they have no clue about anything I'm into at all... they don't even know what trance music is, they don't know any anime or memes, they barely know anything about computers, they have kids and I don't, they are dog people and i'm a cat person, they are into cars and I'm not, they watch stupid tv shows i have no care to interest in, etc... etc... etc.... hell one of them stopped talking to me after I posted a buncha trance songs from youtube on my profile... sucks.... how they can throw away lots on that.... oh well it shows thier true colors...... **** brown and baby puke green.

Wow, we sound like we would get along quite well judging from all your interests haha. I used to have a few real life friends but things became gradually distant throughout highschool as our interests diverged and then we all just went our separate ways came uni. I was never really good at keeping up conversation with new people and so after 4 years at uni, I have virtually no one I can call a friend in real life. I think I've transformed into a hermit as a result. :wacko:

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Wow, we sound like we would get along quite well judging from all your interests haha. I used to have a few real life friends but things became gradually distant throughout highschool as our interests diverged and then we all just went our separate ways came uni. I was never really good at keeping up conversation with new people and so after 4 years at uni, I have virtually no one I can call a friend in real life. I think I've transformed into a hermit as a result. :wacko:

totally feel yah ....

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well the only ones I used to have become so distant and I talk to em on facebook and they have no clue about anything I'm into at all... they don't even know what trance music is, they don't know any anime or memes, they barely know anything about computers, they have kids and I don't, they are dog people and i'm a cat person, they are into cars and I'm not, they watch stupid tv shows i have no care to interest in, etc... etc... etc.... hell one of them stopped talking to me after I posted a buncha trance songs from youtube on my profile... sucks.... how they can throw away lots on that.... oh well it shows thier true colors...... **** brown and baby puke green.

Pretty much this sums up a lot of people, not all of them of course, but that's the very reason because my FB list is very small, people have gone away out of my inner circle of friends, by either distance... or incapacity of acceptance (read as, I like anime, trance and in general good without voice music, like some games for example) and they just "give up" on me because I'm not good enough close to them.

Wow, we sound like we would get along quite well judging from all your interests haha. I used to have a few real life friends but things became gradually distant throughout highschool as our interests diverged and then we all just went our separate ways came uni. I was never really good at keeping up conversation with new people and so after 4 years at uni, I have virtually no one I can call a friend in real life. I think I've transformed into a hermit as a result. :wacko:

Story of my life, the more I progress... the more I end up with not so much people close

totally feel yah ....

I agree totally in this.

BTW, Remixedcat, I have a dog, a medium size schnauzer... but that doesn't have stopped me of having an imaginary cat as a pillow since childhood (long story short, wanted a cat and never had one, then one day took my pillow and named it cat, it has been so symbolic of me that my familiars keep asking me how is my "cat" every time I see them)

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have you thought about joining some kind of a hobby group? even if you are introverted, you can definitely meet some like-minded people there... and there are always dating sites. they are more popular than ever and they do work.

all the best :) the world doesn't suck... just have to change your approach and perspective sometimes.

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have you thought about joining some kind of a hobby group? even if you are introverted, you can definitely meet some like-minded people there... and there are always dating sites. they are more popular than ever and they do work.

all the best :) the world doesn't suck... just have to change your approach and perspective sometimes.

My current schedule doesn't allow this, but I'll try on future, sounds like a good plan, thanks!

I know it's hard dude, but you have to weather the storm. Things will get better, but you will have to take action. Baby steps will turn to giant leaps!

Yesterday I was attacked very greatly by nostalgia, I feel a bit better now, thanks for your thoughts.

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I think its great you have the ability to be introspective Arceles but perhaps its time to stop thinking and take action. Firstly you will often find yourself feeling worse for dwelling on the past with too much longing, I'm am sure your best days are still ahead of you. Secondly, I think the best philosophy to have is to be happy with yourself first.

When you are happy with just you and your life you will find not only are the days brighter but you'll meet new friends and a new partner with the greatest ease and those people will make sharing those moments in life all the sweeter - but you don't need them to first be happy.

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Hmmm... not sure if I understand the meaning of this... but I once tried to play the violin, it was quite difficult and had to leave it, then I switched to electric guitar but I haven't got the time to keep it practicing, I really love the sound of both.

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Hmmm... not sure if I understand the meaning of this... but I once tried to play the violin, it was quite difficult and had to leave it, then I switched to electric guitar but I haven't got the time to keep it practicing, I really love the sound of both.

It represents a moment when there is nothing wrong but someone is purposely feeling sorry for themselves

The music that is played for a sad moment in a film

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It represents a moment when there is nothing wrong but someone is purposely feeling sorry for themselves

The music that is played for a sad moment in a film

Quite my feelings seriously, but I see that I just have to stop it, thanks.

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Quite my feelings seriously, but I see that I just have to stop it, thanks.

I heard someone say one time, "It's never going to take me anywhere I want to be" talking about thinking about something bad, and it stuck with me, What is the point in thinking about something that will never ever result in anything other than being sad/angry etc, its pointless

Forget about it and change "now" to something you want it to be instead

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I heard someone say one time, "It's never going to take me anywhere I want to be" talking about thinking about something bad, and it stuck with me, What is the point in thinking about something that will never ever result in anything other than being sad/angry etc, its pointless

Forget about it and change "now" to something you want it to be instead

I think it's gonna change quite soon, I'll put proof it if happens, I suppose that is another reason why my mind is pushing such thoughts, I'm a bit under pressure.

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Also a lot of ppl in the area I grew up in are still acting like they need to be badasses and do stupid **** and be *******s to ppl to look cool....they still haven't grew up mentally and spiritually

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Had to move back here for family tho

.. :-(

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Also a lot of ppl in the area I grew up in are still acting like they need to be badasses and do stupid **** and be *******s to ppl to look cool....they still haven't grew up mentally and spiritually

..

Had to move back here for family tho

.. :-(

I know your feeling too, because in my original home was the same, but I saw each one of them to fall down on the way and then I moved out of there, problem now? apparently dust.

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People just really suck these days. Cannot count on much, if anyone, to be there for you and who knows what a friend truly is. And a friend is not only there when they need something or when its convenient for them. I am very selective who I call friend. Would rather be by myself than with people I dont know. With that said, just keep yourself busy and your mind off things that are troubling you. If all you do is sit around, not saying you do, then you think to much.

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